life in your butthole

2012

2012-01-05T10:46:00.003+08:00

a picture from 2011 (class of '94 reunion)

2011

felt exactly how when i was in primary 6. the year started the same and ended quite the same.

2012,

i'm hoping this year would be a good one. challenges needed to be faced this year ;

- life decision of finally going to either a college/back to form 6.

- losing contacts w/ school mates

- work?

- obesity, yes.

- avoiding from bad company

- sneaking out late without getting caught

- convince parents to allow me buying a new phone

back to school

2011-06-13T22:36:00.002+08:00

BORED. school was really um, boring. didn't do much. wanted to sleep, but couldn't.

i really don't know what to blog about anymore right now. ch.

RAY CAMP

was fun. i guess. kinda. HAHAHA. spent the whole time in camp with my babes. huahahahhaha. that's pretty much it. heh heh.

2011-05-19T19:50:00.003+08:00

okay- exams are almost over. finally.

today i;

woke up feeling like my eye balls were torn out from my eye sockets, so there's that. i felt so shitty this morning -literally. like kept shitting or feel like wanting to shit. i think it was that pudding i had for breakfast. nyeh

moving on.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAYS.

&i can't wait to get my license. my mom is getting sick of hearing me wanting my license so badly. but seriously, i can't wait to drive. of course, after getting my license means my parents would ask me to run some errands, but heck.. it's worth it. maybe i shouldn't speak so soon. louie's getting her license soon so yay for that. hm.

gaaah. i'm so psyched for season 7 of How I Met Your Mother

your favorite jinx

2011-04-28T19:17:00.002+08:00

and yet again i have failed to update my blog. hihihi

today-

didn't do nothing much. school is getting um, tiring? i don't really know how to put it into words but i'm getting sick of school and i seriously cannot wait to get out of it. ugh. spm is drawing near soon it'll be a 100+ days left and then 2 digits and then :( sigh. i haven't even started studying yet. i wanted to- but then i'm waiting for baby to want to go to the library. but then again- that's not gonna happen anytime soon. he's always busy.

my plans for the weekend got canceled. i am such a jinx. i don't get why this bad luck keeps following me around. it's annoying. hm. won't be going to school next week. i hope it's worth it.

fo shizzle?

2011-04-18T20:44:00.003+08:00

louiselle's seventeen birthday

monday-

nothing much happened today. jst a lot of talking as usual. lemme see, i have no idea what to blog about today but i'm trying my best to update my blog. asdfghjkl

school sucks. src sucks. i'm sorry, i know it's not right to get all pissy at her.. but yeah. she's getting very annoying &this is definitely not the best place to discuss how annoying she is. uh, one of these days if i have the bullocks to, i'm going to burst out protesting every fucken word she says cause honestly, it's too much. the school is too much. every monday speech makes me want to roll my eyes so hard that they might actually pop out from my eye sockets. GAH. i'm sick of the school &how they're trying to change us. i mean like we're teenagers anyway. we have the rights to make noise. and honestly, compared to other schools our hall scene is less hectic than theirs. the teachers should be thankful. heh, i'm only saying this cause i'm not the ones contributing the noise to the hall.

i wonder how it feels like to actually have guys chasing you down.

2011-04-16T00:37:00.003+08:00

hahaha. wtf. i was going through my blog and i found the link to my friendster. those were the days. friendster is now the lamest shit. even by just saying the word people would turn their heads and make the most ugliest faces you've seen.

note to viewer: try screaming the word friendster in public.

friday

2011-04-16T00:03:00.004+08:00

updated blog layout (isn't it much neater looking?). i think i'm going to start blogging as often again. this yr would probably be the most stressful year of my teenage life.

so, things happened today-

morning:

woke up as usual, woke my baby up. stayed in bed to cuddle with my sheets for a while then headed downstairs to iron my uniform. yes, i iron them early in the morning. after that, i took a shower, brushed my teeth, normal stuff and got ready for school. while doing all that i was also texting baby :)

afternoon:

had lunch. afternoon nap. as usual

evening/night:

i think i spent the whole evening on twitter &tumblr. though i'm still figuring out how this twitter thing works. i mean like, sigh. i don't really like updating about nonsense. but since that's what the society is going towards to might as well join them. heh. i'm already one of them anyway. blogging about nonsense.

today sucked.

i'm missing Jonah Masudal so badly right now i just want to rip his head off and keep him next to me so i could admire his face all night. HAHAHAH. naah. i'm not that uhh.. creepy. if you're reading this baby, i do miss you so badly. come visit me already. i miss you :(

go shit bricks.

jinx

2011-04-14T19:08:00.002+08:00

omg. i haven't been blogging here for so long. i forgot this blog existed. sigh.

school is not going so great. i feel like my grades are going south. it sucks. &no matter how hard i try to stay focused and study there's always that voice in the back of my head telling me not to. i am so fucking lazy. i just want to lay in bed for hours and only get out of it when i'm hungry.

tomorrow's gonna suck.

i feel like a jinx. i feel like i'm the exact opposite to his lucky charm. sigh. why do i bring such bad luck to him? i really don't want to stay away from him. &this thing is going on for too long. sigh. they should just let him go through it already. i feel so bad ;(

when the internet is not the best place to show your feelings.

2010-02-19T14:56:00.002+08:00

i hope this feeling goes away soon.

happy 2 year anniversary baby :D

2009-11-17T19:41:00.002+08:00

today, i went to work.

i dropped by at vad's house at about 7a.m cause it was too early for me to go for work..

so blablabla worked. boring. saw tons of puber hair in almost every bathroom. wtf. hahah. VERY TIRING. then after work, baby fetched me :D he waited fr 2 hours :( cause my job finished later than expected :( again, VERY TIRING.

oh! and HAPPY 2 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY :)

even if we have our ups &downs, i still love you lots :)

&i'm sorry you had to fetch me from work. even when your back hurts, you still came for me :)

would it be easier if i just died?

2009-11-16T21:19:00.005+08:00

i'm so loww. &i feel like crap. i think i'm dead. i wish i'm dead. oh crappy. i know, this may sound stupid and all stupid emo shit, about dying all that. but sometimes, i do wish i could just rest my eyes &go in peace. it'll be easier to live a life where everyone understands you. right?

but God created everyone of us to be different. there are a few advantages and disadvantages. &its up to him to make us feel that way. but i think it's sucky. grr. but still. ahh. btch. oh well, i'm so dead. i rather die than actually die mentally. crappy. why am i so cursed w/ such bad hands? i'm so bad at handling things. WHY? gah! fckfckfck.

i want to die now!

oh &to you. whateverlah, lazy to reply me also nevermind lah kan? :) -i don't mind. i do mind. fck.

crapping isn't enough is it?

2009-11-15T16:47:00.003+08:00

it's been a while since i've updated. don't really like updating anyways. but anywho;

last week was okaylah.. i guess.

went to the AIDS one life exhibition on friday w/ all the form 3s for our lawatan. :) but it kinda sucks cause teacher won't let us wander around th mall to find food. crappy. but apart from teacher being 'uncool' it was okay :) loved th exhibition. it was, more like a heart felt exhibition type thing.

lol. my mom just came in &hugged me :) why? -cause she felt cold. HAHAHAHA. :)

cliche

2009-11-08T22:22:00.003+08:00

here's th link :)
tumblr ain't that bad after all :p

http://fckyeahbelvina.tumblr.com
lol. so cliche but i ran out of ideas. :/

tumblr

2009-11-08T13:02:00.000+08:00

got meself a tumblog.
-will post link when it looks better ;p

lost all the moods.

2009-11-07T15:46:00.003+08:00

exactly.

cause your favorite shades are blue&black. :D

2009-11-05T17:12:00.004+08:00

mami, i want contact lens :(

are you coloured yet?

2009-11-05T17:03:00.003+08:00

jell-o, mellow, hello ;p
bored.

will be going to church this sunday :)
yay Jesus :D

did nothing much today,
didn't go to school. didn't bother.
going to school tomorrow. have to pay school bus fee.
jst because of that? yeah.
like after PMR? ain't no fun. thought it is, but it isn't so oh well.. big bummer.

picture says it all.

2009-11-04T21:44:00.003+08:00

is it a crime to not have tumblr now?
ths morning went to merentas desa II,
then, waited fr mami to finish her work in sch.
went home, watched tv fr a while;
headed to citymall fr lunch then to 1b

bought those two schtuffs in the picture :D
the checkered shirt and red makeup bag(?)
*but who cares, imma make it mah pencil case

i'm diggin' the color of my shirt ;)

please, don't let this be love. or can it be enough?

2009-11-02T13:31:00.004+08:00

i gotz the fevah! nope. i don't. felt like blogging.

Mayday Parade's new album actually sounds good. i mean, you'd have to repeat it to make it sound good? -if you know what i mean.

i gots ulcer and i bit my dry lips and it became a scar. :( why do i always end up scar-ing myself? grr. but anywho, bored as hell *maybe hungry? but i had nothing to do, so i uh, messed around w/ the camera. :p hahaha. explains the new photo on facebook and uh, new header? maybe going to remove it soon. mayybe.

i miss you :( *crap it's 1+ alrdy, have to go check my phone.

i seriously need to work on a good smile :)

2009-11-01T23:09:00.005+08:00

i'm very bad at smiling
i look bad more like hideous when i smile; but you made me look so ugly, i actually felt pretty ;)
i love you times a millionkebillionzezilliontrillion :)

so, i haven't been updating my blog quite as often anymore or been active in it. was busy with all the activities in school and stuff. going to school is so pointless. there's nothing to do; no-thing! the activities are boring. except for the lawatans :p *will only get my butt off my bed if there's lawatan. oh! talent-time and fashion thingy i'm going lh. but only to watch. maybe join the fashion thingy-majigay but then, we have no idea when it is and we were given only little infrmations and they were all like pretty general infos.

will post picture if the dress is done. *IF. it's like we're all lazy to do cause like the teachers also don't give a shit on who's-who-and-who joining. &gardening? meh, like boring. gave up on that too. cause got sme lizard shit/egg on the soil? (WTF?!) yeah.

tried jogging, but then like malas already. so, yeah. gave up on that. maybe will start starving myself. -maybe. but i'm not fat la. just flabby :( like bread ;(

WILL NOT ATTEND SCHOOL TOMORROW**

i love you baby :)

peace out?

sakit perut

2009-10-14T18:46:00.004+08:00

since everyone's in trend w/ the zombies and vampires from picnik; i was thinking- why not?

dammnn this pain. i hope it'll go away soon.
PMR's over. i knw i said it late but heck; it feels normal.
has no exact-special-whatsoever content feeling.
maybe after the results? :s

risk it all, cause i'll catch you if you fall

2009-10-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

addictedd :)

rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2009-09-28T22:14:00.003+08:00

long time no update;

uh, i'm getting boring-er.

PMR is getting nearer?

i'm getting more lazy to go school. Dead bored at home still.'ve been hanggin' at the lib -studying. duh.

sleeping disorder(?); can't sleep. i have bad thoughts before i go to bed.

sometimes cranky. more sensitive.

the air is getting hotter. rain? not so much le.

people are getting more fussy, mean and violent?

ilyJonah <3

fatass mthrfacker

2009-09-18T21:09:00.005+08:00

:)
walking out from th library to get me some fresh air.
studying ws; okaylah. covered like 2 chapters of science *form 1

which is not tht awesome coz i took a lot of time doing it. grr.
but anywho; there's nothing mch to write about .. so yeah.
've been really dizzy these few days *don't know why

super stressed out.
going to seminar nxt saturday
*26/09/2009
going to be bored out of my mind;
but still hv to concentrate reaaal hard.

2009-09-17T19:52:00.001+08:00

fine. be that way.

i'm jst so tired of updating these days. bet no one even bothers. wtthhck. i'll might jst delete ths mthrfcking blog fr it has no benefits and is really boring. and that i completely ran out of words to say to you people.

mthrfckng asshole.

2009-09-17T19:49:00.000+08:00

wtf is wrong with you bel?

2009-09-12T15:29:00.000+08:00

fuckmylife -FML

2009-08-26T12:58:00.003+08:00

here's a link to view other people's misery, cause i know how much you people would enjoy reading them :) lol. kidding

http://fmylife.com
here's a preview;

"Today, I was having sex with my boyfriend. When he was about to orgasm, he screamed "Yes Brittany!" at the top of his lungs.My name's not Brittany. That's his sister." FML

23/08/2009

2009-08-23T23:00:00.002+08:00

today ws great :)
spent the whole day walking around w/ baby :)

watched 2 movies :
# Up -th dog very cute, can talk. hahaha. the old man and fet boi also cutee
# i love you, beth cooper -hayden (th girl frm heroes) looks a bit bloated in the movie, but still pretty lah. hahaa. i guess.

going library tomorrow ;)
going to study.

sorry for th loud music, you can like pause it if it kills your ears; hha. noob.
no pictures; cause i'm scared to bring the DSLR around and baby lumix jst gives out low quality pics. annoys the shit out of me.

you left me hangin' imma leave you hangin'

2009-08-22T17:33:00.005+08:00

& like i said on my previous post; i'll post a picture of the examination pad that i doodled on ;

CLICK!* for biggerbigger picturee

feeling blue?
ROAR -romance on a rocketship
check out their myspace here:
http://myspace.com/romanceonarocketship

todays' been very boring.

luminosity

2009-08-20T13:51:00.006+08:00

today was- boring.
i've always hated bm. nvr liked it.
tomorrow's science' seminar

note to self* don't forget to bring reference book
did nothing much. oh! i did this during th boring bm ceramah :

edited for oily purposes. hahah!
nat-v has a maze on hers. lol. a maze that leads you to Austrailia

you and your ego.

2009-08-18T19:06:00.004+08:00

for i, do not want to know and do not want to care for you anymore. -that's a lie.

i'm jst reallyreally pissed now. srsly.

i get ticked off easily

PMS sucks

2009-08-10T22:27:00.003+08:00

eesh; i hate this feeling.
currently; feeling ecstatic but at the same time; angry. i don't think tht's possible. is it not?

WHY? -cause finally, the charger is backkk!!

* baby went to bed early today :( without saying goodnight :(

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&oh,
FUCK YOU.

bitch. How would you like it if i did tht to your boyfriend? stupidmothafackingassholeshiz. i hope you burn in hell. don't you be calling me to say sorry or to find some mothafacking problum. imma ignore you frm now.

* you no longer exist in my life; bitch.

tyreed. hahhaha.

2009-08-08T21:44:00.001+08:00

he held on to my heart; but nw my only star is falling and it's burning to the ground.

2009-08-07T20:07:00.002+08:00

excel- over.

bt from what i heard; there's another one coming up in two-three weeks time. ish.

coffee

2009-08-06T17:43:00.005+08:00

believe it or not, that's all coffee -in mugs la

H1n1 is spreading so fast now; so yestrday,

*looks at fred* why aren't you wearing your mask fred?
i don't believe in masks.

...
HAHAHA. did you know? that if you don't change the mask for at least every 4 hours, or wash it, there's a high chance that you might get pneumonia and or sala- blah i forgot wht's it called disease.

so many diseases.

excel?
Monday- uh, bm sucked. i gt my paper tday (thrsday) i gt 54% :/
sej sucked too. did study, but the topics i studied didn't really come out :/

Tuesday- english? uh, wrote stuffs on essay paper that made no sense, i jst hope i not going to fail. :(

Wednesday- Maths was hard, so was geo.. did nothing much. denise didn't go to sch. she's sickk.

Thursday- which is today, uh, KHB was okay laa. i guess. didn't really get the lst part about the accounts, don't really want to get it. :/ too complex fr my brain.

wtf?

2009-07-31T09:51:00.002+08:00

cutee :)

anyways, kim, nat, *couldn't really tell who's who* called me on th sch public phone jst now. Lol. i'm guessing they were bored.. anyways, they told me that th bzcth cut her eyelashes off! wtf. i did it first whaat. wtf. asshole. sch a copy cat oh!

why do people end up liking stuffs i like; i hate having th same thing as othr people do okay. try being unique fr once bah. see how it feels like dumbass. well, she is unique in a bad way. lol. hahaha. well, maybe not unique. lol. jst reallyreally superduper oh-so-veryvery annoying.

she's th one who disagreed about it in th first place saying it won't grow back. well, mine's pretty long nw. i dn't really mind you cutting off your eyelashes; but you yourself said it wouldn't work bah bitch! uh, have some pride la. stop talking to us. we don't even want to talk to you or even look at your fce. grr. so annoying oh!

oh, silly me :)

2009-07-30T21:14:00.002+08:00

aww :) doesn't babiman look cutee here? :)

today-

we had japanese exchange students in our school;
only one of them could actually speak english, th rest, not so.

today's also th pelantikan fr th new prefects 2009/2010. can't believe tht girl got in. she sooo doesn't deserve it. i'd make a better pengawas than she is. nt to be vain, but it's so true. anyone would make a better pengawas than she is. ANYONE.

even some of th teachers agrees.

class? -did nothing much today, if i knew; i wouldn't want to bring any books to sch.

those japanese people were th freak show of th day- well, i wasn't in th crwd lah. lol maybe just at th sides? hahaa. bt it felt weird crowding ovr them as if i'm so sakai- well, m a bit am. hahaha.

i need new pictures fr my posts, running out of stock liao. HAHAHA. bt hw can i do tht when my camera's dead and i cn't find the charger?

outdated; over-rated

2009-07-29T20:31:00.002+08:00

i'm so annoyed >:(

facebook sucks.
why does th internet connection hate me that badly? and oh! we gt our yearbooks alrdy :) they spelled out my name 'belverina' thank you to whoever spelled it. >;(

uh, today was-- boring as usual.
didn't wear socks to school coz i couldn't find any; and was alrdy running late :( i'm such a slomo. didn't do much, went to karam, bought tht telephone wire type of rubber-band-thing? nothing intrsting happened anyways.

but um, yestrday was srsly ANNOYING. ish. this bitch ws insulting Nat-Vee; she said somethingsomething, blabla-- * couldn't really hear anything coz she was talking fast * blabla 'look in th mirror' and when she said tht i was like- wtf? why don't she look in th mirror. if you wanted to insult someone else, first- look in th mirror la bah asshole. pukima. anjing. sial. babi. balik kampung bugis kau la. anjing betul oh. I'm still pissed abt it. wtf. mau mengulu pun cam tai ni. cam la ko cantik sangat kan? anjing sa lagi cantik. * i don't even have * lol. bt ishh. so WTF oh this woman.

she's planning to get a blog? wtf?
she thinks she's one of us? lagi la wtf?
she goes around telling people lies. -obvious.

i've srsly lost my patience with ths girl oh, one day if she breaks thru my boiling point, i'm sooo going to scream at her bugis face. wtf.

Oh 6th October;

2009-07-28T21:45:00.003+08:00

Will Florida please be still tonight,
Don't disturb this love of mine.
And how she's so serene, you've got to help me out.
And count the stars to form a line, and find the words we sing in time.
I want to keep her dreaming, it's my one wish, I won't forget this.

I'm outdated, over-rated; Morning seems so far away.
So I'll sing a melody, and hope to God she's listening;
Sleeping softly while I sing.
And I'll be in your memories, your lullaby for all the times;
Hoping that my voice can get it right.

If luck is on my side tonight, my clumsy tongue will make it right.
And with this touch, it isn't much,
But it's enough,
to form imaginary lines;
Forget your scars, I'll forget mine.
The hours changed so fast, oh God please make this last

Cause I'm outdated, over-rated; Morning seems so far away.
So I'll sing a melody, and hope to God she's listening;
Sleeping softly while I sing.
And I'll be in your memories, your lullaby for all the times;
Hoping that my voice can get it right.

You could crush me, but please don't crush me;
Cause baby I'm a dreamer.
I'm sure, and I won't let you down.
I swear this time I mean it.

And I'll sing a melody, and hope to God she's listening;
Sleeping softly while I sing.
And I'll be in your memories, your lullaby for all the times;
Hoping that my voice can get it right.

-- <3>

:)

2009-07-25T15:38:00.001+08:00

visited Hazel's blog jst now :)
reminded me of an old song;

hush - automatic loveletter

you suck.

2009-07-25T15:10:00.002+08:00

why? cause lah.

why must i give a damn about evrythng? i should stop. i hate ths feeling oh. wtf. i hate it. i should start being you- th i dn't gv a damn about anything anymore type of person. yes. i should. am i right?

i have no where to run to anymore;

A walk through hell

2009-07-19T15:09:00.007+08:00

well, since i've cured frm my tonsilitist. -bet you're thinking tht's not real; but yeah. it is. i've decided to um, do nothing about it. hahaha. today was boring.

Currently listening to; Say Anything - A Walk Through Hell

And if I could swim, I’d swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating in the dark.
And if I was blessed, I’d walk on the water you’re breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving, sunken chest.

‘Cause they chose you as the model for their empty little dreams,
With your new head and your legs spread like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you, and they gut you, and you give in.

And if I was brave, I’d climb up to you on the mountain,
They led you to drink from their fountain spouting lies.
And I’d slay the horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission to your eyes.
And I’d stand there, like a soldier, with my foot upon his chest,
With my grin spread, and my arms out, in my bloodstained Sunday’s best,
And you’d hold me; I’d remind you who you are under their shell.

I’d walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is useless without you…

And if they send a whirlwind, I’d hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake, I’d calm it, and I’d bring you back to me.
And I’d hold you in my weak arms like a first born.

I’d walk through hell for you, let it burn right through my shoes,
These soles are useless without you
Through hell for you, let the torturing ensue;
My soul is usless without you…

Through hell for you
Through hell for you
Without you, without you…

Now I’ve walked through hell for you.
What’s an adventurer to do,
But rest these feet at home with you?

it's catchy ;)
here's a link :Click Me!

pretty :)

2009-07-18T21:48:00.005+08:00

was making myself busy surfing th net and i found pretty people :)

D A N I G O R E

H A N N A H B E T H

i love you :)

2009-07-18T19:23:00.004+08:00

baby, i love you :)
i love you more than i love myself,
i'd always put you first,
even if i come second to you.
I miss you :(

if only you knew;

2009-07-18T19:02:00.005+08:00

feeling a little better now?

so, from now onwards i'm not allowed to go out. wtf. i did nothing but ask my mom if i could go to tht youth concert in St. Simon. wtf. i'm so pissed. i hate PMR. PMR ruins other people's life. wtf. i shouldn't hv made tht deal if i knew it'll resort to ths. Ish.

ths computer scks la. don't hv audio again tht. how am i suppose to sink all th voices around me now?

I'm dead bored at home. brandon-out. tata-out. bel- home. doing absolutely nthing but blogging coz she has/can't go nowhere. wtf. why do i have such bad luck?
WHY?

can't even go lifenight to anymore. can't complete tht bracelet thingy. aih. fuck. FUCK YOU PMR. FUCK YOU. and if you fail me, i'd be screaming on top of my lungs till it bursts; and then i'd die because of it cause yeah. you suck that hard. but if i don't fail and instead get 7A's i'd be laughing to myself silly with a blackberry in hand :) -doubt it.

still sick :/

2009-07-16T06:46:00.002+08:00

i went home early yesterday; had to forfeit two paper :/
was really sick. hair was messed up; coughed so many times in class, had fever, the chills, darn. i forgot to bring my sweater yesterday :/

still coughing really badly now. i feel like vomiting :( i'm scared.

staying home again today. not feeling well. my medications are about to finish, and i'm still sick. :/

sick :(

2009-07-14T06:39:00.002+08:00

i'm staying at home fr the day :(

i can't take my test today :( maybe some other day. -maybe. been a long while since i've updated this thing. it's just that i have nothing to talk about and coz i'm really sick these few days. I've been having fever for over a week now :/ i went to check if i have h1n1, but uh, i don't :) but this morning was a bit scary coz when i finished brushing my teeth, i went out from the bathroom then i felt like puking. but i didn't puke tho :) which is a good thing :)

and oh! new computer :) 18.5" inch monitorrr :D

uh.

2009-07-10T17:38:00.002+08:00

i'm so inactive in ths blogging lately;i've been busy w/ a lot 6f things this week. HAHAHA. not. just veryvery layzay. hahaha.

sports carnival? um, didn't join anything :) *thumbs up*
i hate sports anyways :D
instead i joined A E R O B I C S

i'm so fit oh. HAHAHAHA. not.

but aerobics was really tiring. that 'middled-aged-lady' has some gooood stamina, and a perfectly round shaped arse :) hahaha. weird.

uh, next weeks' exam. going to study- maybe.
new computer? :) not here yet :(

katie, don't cry :'(

2009-07-03T20:56:00.003+08:00

eyes wide open; i can't shut them.
stupid head why are you thinking so critically?

i'd jump off a cliff for you;

2009-07-03T20:53:00.003+08:00

"it's getting harder to breathe"
i can't seem to pick th right words to say.

ohh. bah.

2009-06-28T21:19:00.004+08:00

i don't mind sincerity nor th truth; but sometimes-
i just wish you could at least sugar coat your words.

here we go again;
with all the things we said
and not a minute spent
to think that we'd regret
so we just take it back,
these words and hold our breath
forget the things we swore we meant

i'll write you just to let you know that i'm alright
can't say i'm sad to see you go

drag me to hell; th movie.

2009-06-28T18:15:00.003+08:00

kay, i knw this movie basi alrdy; but HAHA! at least i watched itt :)

was so darn, downright- disgusting. srsly.
Ganush *th old lady* kept vomiting in her mouth this; like wtf. yak.
i went w/ my mom :) hahaha. only.
but then after that met up with Baby :)
so cute thissss he :DDD
i less than three you :)

hopefully these three months won't give any impact on my daily schedule :(

darn. it's raining. but oh well- at least i didn't spend my day sitting in front of the computer screen like a computer freak. i'm trying not to touch the computer fr these few months. :) going to study hard -- cause if i get 7A's daddy's going to get me a blackberry :) hopefully he keeps his promise if i do get the 7A's :)

who's bad?

2009-06-27T15:04:00.007+08:00

me :)

darn; i'm feeling a slight sense of evil-ness all of th sudden :)
oh!oh! guess what number i got?

10 huahahah. with a total percentage of 65.86%
no. that's not good.

darn 3 months :(
at least i still hv your weekends, i'm okay with that :( i guess.

picturass. :0

*click* for biggerbigger picturee
yesyesyes; i know-- i;m vain.

King of Pop -- charlie's angel?

2009-06-27T06:59:00.004+08:00

MJ died :/ crappy. was starting to like him till Bong came in and told us about th news. pfft. poor micheal :( may your soul rest in peace; & may you enjoy life in Pop Heaven :)

well, since all the attention went to Micheal; did anyone know that farah faucett died too? On the same day? darn. -which was yesterday but i very layzay to update wan. I wonder if they'll bump into each other up there :/

anyways; now i'm still in towels cause i'm going to go get my report card :/
class teacher(s) for the day : Puan Wee & Mr. Wee.

and no; they're not married nor related just a coincidence.

people are getting stupidder by day. i'm getting blinder;
OH FCKNG CRAP PMR IS NEAR
13 weeeks to go

header

2009-06-20T16:23:00.010+08:00

i have no idea which one to choose from for my banner ;
be prepared for vain-ness attack! :)
haters are strictly advised to immediately close this window for they may not like what they see

blogger header; --for now.
okay-- this is definately out
same goes here
no face :) i likey *

messy? :(
zoom in :) so clear oh this shot. HAHAHA. in a way.
smilee?
this one is out too--
um, maybe too vain. :/

srry :(

2009-06-19T22:29:00.002+08:00

long time no updates. HAHA. was busy with um, life?

so um, nothing much happened these few weeks. maybe that's why i haven't been updating. :/ i hate going to ko-kum :( skipped evry co-curicular activities :( boring oh. andand PBSM sucks. HAHAHA. yeah. i admit. i don't even want to be in it. :/ i want change unit-beruniform :( but if i do; i'd have to restart all my co-curiculum marks? or so they say la. but ihh. PBSM sucks to the core. HAHAHA. i'm serious.

liars so don't turn me on; call it quits?

One way; Jesus :)

2009-06-08T09:22:00.002+08:00

th camp was fantastic! < father Simon Peirera likes to use this word :)

i re-newed my heart, my mind, my soul;
i'm TRANSFORMED :)

praise the Lord :)
i love you Jesus :)

[away]

2009-06-05T06:15:00.004+08:00

away from 5June to 7June.
Lifeteen Camp 2009 Pace Bene?

Will blog straight away when i've reached home :)
i'm not going to bring my camera, so um; yeah. No pictures :/

:(

2009-06-02T19:09:00.003+08:00

i'm now online in my msn; got nothing to do, so i stared at the messenger. HAHAHA. and read other people's personal message(s)[pm]. :p

here's what i found
Click Me!

please be warned for it may contain mature subjects and/or contents

hngry

2009-06-01T19:47:00.003+08:00

i painted my nails pink & yellow :)
walked around town, did nothing much; bought yellow nail polish & yellow chopstick for hair? hahaha. and oh! a 5 bucks worth of star bracelet. :D hahaha. andand; i got new glasses :/ i look nerdy. maybe next time then i post picture, camera low batt :(

i shot the frickin' sheriff; are you frickin' happy now?

2009-05-31T21:16:00.007+08:00

i seriously don't know what to do; i'm so boreed. let's type without a.e.i.o.u(s) vocals

hll my nm s blvn. hhhhh. cn y vn ndrstnd ths? ths s s wrd. th wrld nds vcls. lf gs bttr wth t. ppl cn ndrstnd bttr wth t. s, n't ths cnfssng? f n, thn y r - frckn rtrd. wrd. - cnt vn rffr t myslf r n bjct. - nw knw why th hmn scty crtd vcls. t's t mk lf sr<--- [wtff.]

translation? hahaha. no way. figure that one out yourself

J <3

2009-05-31T21:10:00.007+08:00

why?
cause i'm bored

why?
cause there's nothing to do

why?
because the world is boring

why?
because he's not here

why?
because we're not married- yet. :pp

why?
because we're young <3

why?
because we're born at the same year

why?
becosh yoe' mama iss sho fet.

coz you sak

2009-05-31T20:59:00.007+08:00

freaky
fish
fck
friend
folio?
facebook
freedom
fon :p
fat
fry
fly
fan
fags
fun
fabric
fantasy?
fake
face
feet
failure.

layzay

i feel like pantat

2009-05-31T09:30:00.001+08:00

:/

hv to go to my aunt's engagement today; pfft. i seriously layzay to go ohh :'( i want to stay at home and curl up in my bed under blankets :(

i miss baby :(

:O

2009-05-30T15:31:00.002+08:00

"if you seek amy - britney spears"

i just found out what that means; so to all little girls who've been singing that song; better stop singing it. tsktsktsk. it's bad for youu :/ britneys' so smart :D ahaha. in a way.

:)

2009-05-29T06:42:00.001+08:00

not going to school today -teacher's day.
HAHAHA.

sent my geo folio yesterday; hoping she'd give me back my folio cause it's not thatt complete yet :S was rushing as usual; i do everything last minute. There's something wrong with my nose. I've been smelling smelly things a lot lately. It's not like i want to smell it; but the air just smell bad these days.

catchy kan my blog song? :D

confirmation :D

2009-05-25T13:59:00.004+08:00

:D haha.

i think he was singing; aww :)

umm, testing? hahaha. cute oh my baby :D

um, :p

weirdest; bel.

change colour?

2009-05-22T11:24:00.003+08:00

yeap; and i also added a few boxes :D
hahaha. might delete some ;/

reasons due to changes; was really bored. Had nothing to do- no one to text- no one to talk to- i had nothing to do- no one to text- no one to talk to-

tomorrow's confirmation :D
my dress- weird. But i like the cutting :D hahaha.

stupid science

2009-05-19T12:35:00.002+08:00

i ws so confident this when i answered my paper 1; suddenly when i re-checked in the book; all salah. shitty.

did nothing much today, went home earlyy :D

i'm infected by baby's germs <3
baby, i love your germs :) HAHAA.
this flu is killing me ;/
been sniffing a lot; nose hurts :(

and oh! i have confession today :D hahaha. i shall now think of all my sins, and repent? hahaha. I'll try my best not to sin after confession :)

yestrday, during maths; i was hving hick-ups. Stupid hick-ups. hahaha. when i laid my head on the table, ngamngam my mouth was open, so my hick-up was very loud and evryone turned to look at me for a while :S i don't likee. i heard Kim laughing from her seat. HAHAHA. it was sort of funny laa. but not for me :( painful bah hick-up-ing. :(

if i could describe with words;
how i truly feel for you,
i swear; you'd fall in love all over again :)

yo' face.

2009-05-16T12:24:00.004+08:00

I'm bored; the i'm ignoring you fatass look. HAHAHHA.
oh! noticed that my hair is a little less longer?

Which reminded me;
i dreamt i went bald last night, i shaved my own head bald. Why? no idea. Well, on the bright side; i wasn't entirely bald. :D and-- it was only a dream.

suck-ups

2009-05-16T11:05:00.005+08:00

when people starts sucking up to you;
the first thing to do is to : WONDER WHY?

brown nosed/suck-ups/or commonly known as ass kissers
they all do it for a reason. Here's an explaination :

brown nosed; to suck up or kiss ass. the term BROWN nose is because your nose is up their ass as you're kissing it, if that makes any sense.

A suck-up; an underling who likes to give an ego-logical boost to someone higher up on the ladder in order to gain power

Ass kisser = a suck up, someone who will kiss someone's butt to gain points. Sometimes these folks are known as bum-kissers. Often these folks tend to be the goody goody types whom one can not trust for a second - these folks will use what you tell them, or do, against you for their own personal gain. Most of these people are social nerds with few social skills - the only way they can get attention is to play suck up to someone important

so, to those who've been sucked-up to; you've all been used. HAHAHA.
may this post make you a little less dumber.

slight chill;

2009-05-15T17:31:00.002+08:00

my eyes feels so dry! but the weird thing is i jst woke up! :( oh god! its so dryyyyy;
chilly. maybe its a sign i shouldn't be staying infront of the computer.

EXAM- sucked.
well; next week's one is going to suck harder. I hate BM. pakpakpak. grr. It was so bad, i had to crack my knuckles a few time cause i was already getting finger cramps. :( we had to write about 4 essays? or somewhat near that according to the PMR format. I wonder how i'm going to survive PMR- doubt that i will.

English was okay; i didn't know monkeys could fly. :/ what's flit anyways?

Siviks & PJK(what school makes their students study the least important subject like PJK?)
sucked. didn't know what to write, wasn't listening in class; who does?

am i getting a fver?

Swine Flu

2009-05-14T20:59:00.000+08:00

We do know that swine flu symptoms are just like seasonal flu symptoms.

Swine Flu Symptoms

According to the CDC, like seasonal flu, symptoms of swine flu infections can include:

fever, which is usually high, but unlike seasonal flu, is sometimes absent
cough
runny nose or stuffy nose
sore throat
body aches
headache
chills
fatigue or tiredness, which can be extreme
diarrhea and vomiting, sometimes, but more commonly seen than with seasonal flu

Serious Swine Flu Symptoms

More serious symptoms that would indicate that a child with swine flu would need urgent medical attention include:

Fast breathing or trouble breathing
Bluish or gray skin color
Not drinking enough fluids
Severe or persistent vomiting
Not waking up or not interacting
Being so irritable that the child does not want to be held
Flu-like symptoms improve but then return with fever and worse cough

-freaky.

back from school :)

2009-05-12T13:48:00.003+08:00

hu-ha-hu-ha

Smelled something terrible in the bus on the way home jst now :( smelled like somesort of sweat. That smell made me dizzy :( baby's not home yet :( I is so boredy. Nothing much happened today in school, we jst sat and talked about the past; and how/who pee-ed in class. HAHAHA.

Slept during english :( was reallyreally tired and dizzy; today- sucks.

I saw a cat while waiting fr the bus to arrive; so cute :) but pemalu eeh :(

I haven't done my KKG/KGT nor KST :( tomorrow's exam; first subject is Chainis :) haha. figure that one out yourself; it ain't tht hard. -Not taking chainis; aftr chainis would be siviks i guess; but hahaha. Who would want to study siviks? -not me.

Oh! and they made a new rule; and that is :-
Students aren't allowed to sleep during exams.

crappy. What do they expect me to do if i finished the paper earlier than expected? :( no more nap time? :( well, at least naps keeps us quiet. HAHA. who cares, i'll jst sleep. I hope i won't fail anything :/

"today- sucks."

wedding :)

2009-05-09T16:54:00.003+08:00

Aww :)
Pretty kan my new aunty? :D

a picture o two petals formed into a heart shape :) by ME.

eh, pictures i get bored of.

2009-05-08T23:32:00.004+08:00

sorry.

2009-05-08T22:13:00.001+08:00

so sorry about that last post;
i was really angry.
I'm jst too afraid to confront her when nothing's really breaking her. She's built a thick face already. I seriously have no idea why she needs to lie.

but anyways..
any suggestion to overcome my fears?

causing a drama.

2009-05-08T21:32:00.007+08:00

I don't get you girl.
Why are you so egoistic to even admit that you're lying? I know it takes a lot of courage to admit; but its your own fault. You don't even care if your friends don't like you; or so you say it. So, Vakalulu brought me outside the class to look for her file; then she told me she wanted to confront girl in class when we get back from looking for her file. :) i was panting and was in panic. HAHA. why? cause i am a chicken. :0

so here;s what happened

VakaluluGirl

*pushes all her stuffs to my table* Hey, 'name' i need to talk to you about some serious matter
Ah? what?
Did you notice that a lot of people are starting to hate you -i love that line; but too harsh.
*brings vakalulu away*-nooo!

i couldn't hear anything, so i was only left w/ denise; we talkedtalked, and then we saw girl holding vakalulu's hands and then said something that looked serious. Couldn't really hear it though. But i bet it's all bullcrap. So, when Vakalulu went back to her seat/Kim's- she told us that when girl held her hands; she ws saying "Vakalulu, would i ever lie to you?" pfft. HAHAHA. i knew it was bullcrap. HAHA. punya laaa. Eee.

Since she ain't budging; imma write some stuffs she lied about/did: -

1. She lied about where she was born. There are a few places she mentioned
-Medina
-Europe (frgt where cause it was too confusing)
-Sri Lanka
-Klinik Kara

2. She most probably lied about where she stayed when she was 3; she said she lived in Spain for three years, and then traveled the world in 5 years? but she met denise in Kindergarten? when she was 5? tsktsk. if you wanted to lie, be more logic.

3. And um, most probably lied about breaking up w/ her boyfriend cause we see him w/ her like almost every weekend and she says she's not w/ him. why? poor boyfriend. i really pity him.

4. Totally lied about her real parents; or so she says that she's adopted.
-she said that her REAL mom is somewhere in the world
-she said her REAL dad hs some -- blabla i can't say it cause; well. i ain't that mean.
-she said that her REAL dad got killed, and her mom wanted to commit suicide. -sorry to pt this here if it's real. but i wouldn;t know if it is
Even if you're adopted, you have no rights to talk bad about your original parents.

5. She steals guys.
-she gets too close w/ other girl's boyfriends/crushes.
-she makes up stories about guys saying they liked her, but they never did.

6. She feeds on compliments
Oh yes! that's right. No suprise huh? She thinks she's all that. Bt infront of us, she says she's fat and blabla -obviously she's not. In some stories i've heard, she's reallyreally vain. C'mon! even if you're as tall as a model, doesn't mean everyone thinks so. Reality check; you're ain't that pretty.

7. You never cared for your friends; wth? adakah you go say
"i didn't know i was suppose to care about my friend's feelings" wtf.

So, i'm guessing we meant nothing to you. You said you're going to apologize, but instead; you pretended like nothing happened; this is what it got you. I'm so sorry i had to do this. But if only you could tell us the truth w/o changing your stories and actually getting your stories straight w/ proofs; i'll delete this post. *i swear*

grr. i so pissed

2009-05-07T01:00:00.002+08:00

i bought new calculator :) -well, mami did.
i so happ-eeee. :)
i lost my old one, so uh.. yeah :)
ohoh! and i lost my glasses.
i am now officially blind :(
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee >:(

nothing much happened in school, she said she's going to say sorry; well- i haven't hear sorry from you yet. so, yeahh.. don't know la you; maybe you're just going to pretend like nothing happened, oh wel; we're not going to.

demam babi betul
ahhahaha
swine flu :b

palispalis.

i bored oh, staying up all night tonight; maybe laa.. but my back hurts already thiss. Geo bah babi. like pantat only theree. kin panas. KST again laa. i not chet do mai sivik. deii. ni sivik tia mau rugi ni bah, KST ada, KGT ada KKS pun mauu. odoiiiiiii. mau kena sut tu.

hahahha. boredy. sleepy. i woke baby up; not yet wake up also :(

does he really mean it?

2009-05-06T22:26:00.004+08:00

Tonight I'll call you and let it ring all night
But you won't answer cause you don't wanna fight
You told me together until the very end
But you didn't mean it cus now you're all over him
You said baby don't worry you mean more than the world
I guess the world is worthless cus I don't mean a thing to her
She had it her way everything seemed alright
But I'm alone now and it's like I wont survive.

You were my everything but now I'm older and I'm stronger
And how much longer till he finds a girl that's hotter does
He really mean it when he tells you that he loves you
Does he really mean it when he tells you that he loves

You were my everything but now I'm older and I'm wiser
And he's looking for another girl and soon he's gonna find her
Leave him he's already starting to ignore you
There is a better guy and he wrote this song for

You were my everything but now I'm older and I'm stronger
And how much longer till he finds a girl that's hotter does
He really mean it when he tells you that he loves you
Does he really mean it when he tells you that he loves

You were my everything but now I'm older and I'm wiser
And he's looking for another girl and soon he's gonna find her
Leave him he's already starting to ignore you
There is a better guy and he wrote this song for

this looks fun :)

2009-05-02T23:58:00.004+08:00

Got this from Evanyll;

copy&paste:)

please and thank you!

1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Belvina Benjamin

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 4 letters of real name plus izzle.)
Belvizzle

3. YOUR SPY NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal)
green cat(?) hahaha. mutant.

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (your middle name and street you live on/or neighborhood if it's a number)
*the fact that i don't have a middle name saddens me*-towering

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)

BenBe hhahaha. cool :)

6. YOUR SUPERHERO/CRIMINAL NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
RedGreen Tea*muahahah!! i feel evil already*

7. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your last name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, and last letter of your moms first name).
Elbenby hahaha. ew

8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (parents middle names).
i don't think they have one

9 . YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets).
black mimu

10 . YOUR HOOD NAME:....first 4 of your first name and add -iqua....
belviqua

you're skin ain't opaqued

2009-05-02T22:53:00.004+08:00

i know things aren't doing quite well between us, i'm just too afraid to confront you. so, here's a letter to you. i know you think i'm talking bad about you; welL.. you might be right at one point. but you do the exact same to others, now you're just being a hypocrite.

Everyone can see thru you, well.. mOstly girls. i hope you kNow what you're doing. you're schooling in an all girls school; let's see how they like you Now. we've been kInd enough to except you but what you're doing latEly is just wrong. how wouLd you like it if we did the same to yOu?

even if yoU're pretty, doesn't mean you're better than us. your standards are lower. you'd go for any guy. you're a man-stealer. I hope someday, all guys can See how fake you arE. You and your fake *this part is censord*. you think we don;t know? heLL yeah we know, we're girls too.

you and your liEs, chh. i'd like to see you being honest for a day.

and steaLing someone else's crushes? thEy might not be our bOyfriend; but what you'rE doing is Seriously wrong, and it's geTting out of hand. you know you're pRetty. you 'deny' it in front of us jst so we can feed you with compliments. well, let's see whO's going to comPliment you now. i hope you know what you're doing.

regards;
the one you're ignoring

i'll shove my whole fist up your ass; if you won't shut the freak up.

2009-04-26T04:50:00.004+08:00

guess what time it is? (4.51am)

yes, it's early for someone to be awake at this hour

why i woke up early?

1# no air-conditioner in my room

2# can't sleep

3# cause of the first onee; panass ;/

so i decided to go to the living room; the less warmer area of the house. i think the warmest area of my house is my own room. wait-- it's brandon's room. Eee.

later going to go get ready for sunday school; *i'm crossing my fingers so that i won't be sleeping the whole way through* :S

currently# listening to old songs *well, not exactly old..*those i downloaded a century ago. hahaha. pfft. as if.

missing# baby :( not yet wake up that he :(

la la stupid lies.

2009-04-25T17:49:00.001+08:00

boredyy;

um, nothing much happenedd this week..
but um, i have this feeling that my circle of friends are parting :'( well, it's not entirely my fault. i have my reasons. i don't think she has one. but oh well, everyone have their reasons. but she's just over reacting. :( pfft. lies.

PWNED

2009-04-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

prepare to be less dumb-er; click play :)

2009-04-24T18:51:00.002+08:00

can you stay strong? can you go on?
baby are you doing okay?

cause baby, i lovee you thatt muchh :)

2009-04-15T06:52:00.004+08:00

not going to school today :)
hahaa. i woke up early;
cause i'm his alarm clock ♥
boredy.. boredy.. boredy

why i didn't go to school?
-cause it's a ko-kum day :p
-cause i no fit my PBSM shits. haha.

so, today..
uh. it's only 6.57am. crapp.
i've got like until 5pm to entertain myself w/ stuffs around the house. why 5? cause that's when my baby comes homee :) hahahha :pp

kay.. have to go start entertaining myself; -- will update when i'm superduper bored

there's just no one; who gets me like you do

2009-04-12T20:09:00.008+08:00

Yellowcard - Only one

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

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a thought;

It sounds to me like the couples (possibly long-term) relationship was teetering on a breakup. When the breakup happened and the girl asked him for a reason, he couldn't give her one because he really had none since he clearly didn't know what he wanted.
Perhaps the guy was looking to see if he could find better than what he had (or he had a wandering eye for another girl) and he left her, only to realize too late that he had what he wanted all along.

They may have gotten back together because she's willing to forgive him for what he did. The guy is flustered and afraid he will repeat the mistakes. He realizes he's completely ruined what they had and doesn't think things will get fixed(or rather, pieced back together). Even though she's willing to work with him, the guy doesn't even try to fix their relationship (out of fear) and leaves again.

He then leaves a poorly written note for her. He knows well that she will see through whatever shoddy, dishonest reasons he gives her for leaving, but will not tell her the truth. He still leaves, fearing his mistakes, which in the long run will certainly come back to haunt him in the future.

Thus, he is screaming out (figuratively and literally) his true feelings of love for this girl.

p/s: i did not write this down.

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note : do not repeat the same mistake

tagged?

2009-04-11T10:56:00.003+08:00

Dear (some that you recently talked to),I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1).
(2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).
(12),Name

*Paste your last answer as the title

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Other - With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Other -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the mustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Spank me
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt

My answer is:

Dear Mami,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but your nostrils are insulting. When you smacked my ass in your car and I saw you sit on my illegitimate child in Ghana. I'm sure you're shamed enough to understand that that your driving sucks. I'm returning the cut toenails, but I'll keep my virginity as a memory. You should also know that I Love your sweet, sweet ass and You should stop picking your nose.
Greetings to your frog Leonard,
bel

i dedicate this post to;

2009-04-08T07:25:00.003+08:00

My beloved cat; Mimu

dear mimu,

whereever you are, please come home. i miss youu :( your brother kewek and pududut died. i'm hoping nothing bad has happened to you :( but if you're dead. i'll just say that i'll miss you oh so terribly. Mimuuu :'(

p/s: lulu's lonely. she misses you too.

i de-tagged.

2009-04-08T06:56:00.002+08:00

001. Real name → Belvina B.
002. Nickname(s)→ Bel.
004. Zodiac sign → Virgoo :)
005. Male or female → fe-Male
006. Elementary → SFC
007. Middle School → SFC
008. High School → SFC
009. College School → none- yet(?)
010. Hair color → uh, blaack
011. Long or short → long
012. Loud or Quiet → loud?
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans :)
014. Phone or Camera → both :)
015. Health freak → nopee. more like the oppsite of it
016. Drink or Smoke? → drink water :)
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → yeaapp :)
018. Eat or Drink → bothh :)
019. Piercings → a pair :)
020. Tattoos → none-

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing → forgot
024. First best friend → eh, gee.. i forgot oh
025. First award → third in class *kindergarten :D
026. First crush → pfft.
027. First pet → eh, cats?
028. First big vacation → forgot ohh.
030. First big birthday → hahaha. pfft. as if.

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating → nothing
050. Drinking → refer to 049
052. I'm about to → type the answer.
053. Listening to → the sound of a car engine
054. Plans for today → stay at homee :)
055. Waiting for → baby to come home at 5 :(

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? → yeh
059. Want to get married? → uh-huh :)
060. Careers in mind? → um, haven't decided yet. but hoping it has something to do with arts?

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?

068. Lips or eyes → eyess :)
070. Shorter or taller? → taller :)
072. Romantic or spontaneous → both :)
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → eh, whichever :)
074. Sensitive or loud→ hahaha. uh, sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship.:D
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts → yes.
081. Ran away from home → almost.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → yess :o
083. Killed somebody → nopee.
084. Broke someone's heart? → no(?)
085. Been arrested → nope. don't wish to-
087. Cried when someone died → yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → not really
090. Miracles → sometime.
091. Love at first sight → nah..
092. Heaven → uh-huh
093. Santa Claus → used to- but he never come to malaysia cause here to panas leh
094 Tooth Fairy → nopee.
095. Kiss on the first date → nahh..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yess :)
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → yeah :)
099. Do you believe in God → uhh, this is a though one. sometimes i do; but at times.. nopee. sorry :(

100. Tag 5 people → feel free to be tagged.

hott-ayy :)

2009-04-03T16:17:00.003+08:00

discovered him like 3 weeks ago :) hott. more vids of him; go to youtube search for 'wasting time chasing cars' :) cuteeeeyy- currently my fave guy :) 2nd i mean.

i boreddy :)

2009-03-29T15:48:00.003+08:00

bored, tried to change layout. but boring and umm, .. confusing?
so, just a quick update-

monday?
i forgot what happened. nothing much i guess. hhahaha. oh! wait-- our class won for the bazaar tickets selling thingymajiggy. haha. uh, got some thumbler/mug/container. and 4 buckets of KFC. woo-hoo! :)

tuesday?
uh, i don't know oh. like nothing much thiss. all i can remember was me, sitting in the class talking about shits. hahaha. got this one girl bah, so ttm this. If people already do like that to you; sedar-sedar la bah yang we don't like you. andd you call yourself our friend? pfft. haha. kesian of you girl.

wednesday?
pj. boreddy. nothing much. many teachers didn't come to class :) which is a good but bad thing. but there's always self-study bah :) kankan? Ko-kum, yeah.. i skipped it. hahahaha. and uh, i missed my bus. so i had to call my mom to pick me up. and she picked me up around 2 like that. sheesh. oh well, serves me right for not paying attention :p

thursday?
uh,i don't know oh.

friday?
planned to skip KHB. but we chickened out and went to class anyways. boring bah KH. especially when you're in pk. and i didn't bring my kerja kayu so, it was pretty hard for me to complete the documentation thingymajigy. oh! then after school i went on my bus; and it drove to kk high. i went down the bus and looked for my sister. and then we went to central. and i totally forgot about my tuition. haha. the first class again thatt. oh well.

saturday?
oh, lifeteens didn't switch-off their lights. but the church sort-of-did. well, i don't get why they wouldn't want to switch it off. Oh-well. maybe next year; imma stay at home during earth hour :) crappy. i signedd up for it andd i didn't practice it. i really wanted to but- oh well.

sunday?
tried finishing homework, but i got too dizzy, boredd, and i had no mood to. aih, more homeworks. crappy ohh. why bah teachers give so banyak homeworks. they think we wonder woman kah? Eee. shiats. so, um.. i'm bored. so boredd.

i know what you're thinking-
what a bore. all words this. hahaha. i knowww..
so, here's a picture to maybe take away the boredom :)

toxxic!

2009-03-27T18:53:00.001+08:00

2009-03-27T18:03:00.002+08:00

Best

1. Male Friend : Jonah :)
2. Female Friend : school friends :)
3. Memory: Jonah :)

Worst

1. Time of day : Afternoon when it's reallyreallysuperduper hott.
2. Day of the week : Friday(KHB)
3. Food : bittergoud
4. Memory: uh, don't know.

Last

1. Person you saw : uhh, family.
2. Talked to on the phone : baybee :)
3. Text : Baybe :)
4. Messaged over MySpace : uh, none ohh.
5. What are you doing right now ? : this taggy.
6. Wearing?: clothes.
7. What is the weather like: gloomy. rainy :)

Tomorrow

1. Is : saturday (my day off)
2. Got any plans? : stay at homee, lifeteens at night :) and earth hour :)
3. Dislikes about tomorrow : uhh, nonee

Favourite

1. Number : 8, 24
2. Song : those that makes your heart go aww :)
3. Season : rainy
4. Cartoon: uh, spongebobb

Currently

1. Missing someone : yeehh
3. Wanting : food?
4. Listening to : the tv. haha.

True or False

I am a morning person : FALSE.
I am an only child : false.
I am currently in my PJ’s : false
I am currently suffering from a broken heart : false
I can be paranoid at times : true
I currently regret something that I have done : false
I curse frequently : true :)
I enjoy country music : so-so
I enjoy hip hop : false
I enjoy techno/trance : so-so
I enjoy talking on the phone : true
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal : true
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor : true
I have changed a lot over the past year : true
I have done something illegal : false?
I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months : true

Other

Single or Taken: taken :)
Eye color : uh, don;t knoww.
Hair : black??
Height : 154cm :)
Righty or lefty : righty

iTaggy :
Anyone that wants to be tagged; feel free to tag yourself :D

busy? not at all :(

2009-03-17T18:13:00.003+08:00

uh, bored. period sucks oh! sheesh.

holidays are alwaysALWAYS boring :(
bored-o i'm brokeee :\ craapppyyy. did nothing much yesterday or the day before, or the day before the day before -- aaah, you get it. so, um.. here's what i did yesterday ..

1.eat
2.sleep
3.fixed nail polish(green)
4.paint nails (green)
5.took pictures

here :

ohh bah :)

2009-03-09T15:10:00.002+08:00

convent's bazaar was kinda boring yesterday;
i spent my cupons mostly on food.
um, then after that Jonah & I went to warisan..
then, went to watch 'Marley & Me' was kind of boring,
was about a cute dog :) the movie's kind-of sadlah.
did nothing much. but it was an okay day :)
better than sitting down at home doing nothing
i malas want to take picture/upload , so.. no picture.
HAHA. sorry?

zombie//spread the love :)

2009-02-28T15:23:00.010+08:00

"in your head; they're still fighting"

that's song is currently stucked in my head, it's been stuck there for a while now. The songs' talking about war and stuffs, sad. I feel very much lucky to be alive and safe in my country. People in Gaza and some other parts of the world are struggling not to be caught or shot to death; as they watched their loved ones murdered. While we have facillities we still can enjoy. Going out shopping and walking around without worrying of being shot, while they struggle just to find food and water and suffer from poverty because their supplies are being taken away. What's the point of making war?-there's actually no point at all. but people who started it are much likely to be very dumb and heartless. We should always settle things in a more civilized way, instead of killing innocent humans. Although some might not be innocent, but who gives you the rights to take one's life? Here's a list of the ongoing wars ;

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ongoing_wars

Global Warming - yeah. it's happening. The ice in the North Pole is already starting to melt. Soon we'd all be drowning in water from the melted ice from the North Pole. We'd just have to hope it's not too late to actually undo this! Here's a way we can prevent/maybe stop global warming ; switch off the air-conditioner once in a while. DO NOT USE IT OFTEN! fridges also might contain somesort of CFC stuffs (no idea, wasn't really paying attention in class) but yeah. WE SHOULD AT LEAST TRY TO SAVE OUR PLANET, it's the only one we have. We don't have spare parts for our planet. In some country, there's already a big hole in their ozone layer. How to stop? Only WE (humans) can help our own planet!

> Recycling
> Fighting global warming

*Click on links to learn how to prevent Global Warming. Mother Nature is calling out for OUR help*

boredy :) pictures taken today

2009-02-21T20:39:00.006+08:00

shitty. i'm so blank now. i have no idea what to do, there are tons of things i'm thinking about now. i'm so bored. my baby busy :( he cannot text me. aiyo. i have no idea what to write about, i'm just going with the flow here. i did nothing today, i slept for like one hour only. eeh. not enough. the sun is getting hotter day by day, we're getting boring-er week by week. i'm shrinking or other people are growing but i'm not month by month. nothing good has happen this month. plus, i think this month is the slowest i've ever experienced. it's also a very sad month. sadsadsad. tons of sad things happened. i'm so sorry for those who have lost their beloved ones this month.

i'm looking this month as the month of death. scary. yeah. but true. a lot of people died this month. sad oh. sad and scary. *okay, i'm not going to think about this* moving on.. uh, oh! yay! next month i'm following the bus already :) yayness :) not that i don't like the fact that my mom picks me up from school, it's just that i'm always the last one to go home among my friends, which is a bummer cause i hate waiting alone. seriously. i have this problem of being all alone, i can talk to myself/cry. sadd. pathetic. i'm all that when i'm all alone. serious. so uh, yeah :) next month -- good month :) i hope :)

i really miss Jonah now :( i tend to miss him a lot when i'm bored. weirdd i knoww. but he takes most of the boredom away? haha. nolah. he bores me also bah SOMETIMES. not all the time. but at least he doesn't really kill all the joy i have? haha. oh, who cares lah. my Jonah is the cutest thing on earth(my earth) :) haha. he's the cutest when he sleeps :) cute ohh. :) hahahha. eeeee. crappy. this post is making me miss him moreee. aihyo. --- moving on..

monday? yeah. boring. i'm planning to walk from convent to kk high. oh wait-- no lah. i'll do that on wednesday. why KKhigh? haha. you all know why. hahah. if you don't -- don't bother knowing lah, it's nothing important. i really hate to wait alone, so i'm willing to walk even if it kills me *i hope it wont* shitty. see first lah if i dare to walk or not. i just don't like to wait alone, that's all. anything but to be alone. eeee. shitty.

i hope i finished all my homeworks-- wait! i haven't done any. aiyo. Pn. Teh (maths teacher) going to move to tenom. eish. i'm gonna miss her. she doesn't really give a damn if i did or didn't bring my book. hahha. and she's not thatt strict. haha. :) and when she teaches maths dayemmn :) haha. nolah. i understand better when she teaches, but i don't usually pay attention during maths, i'll just turn to my right to find the math genius -- kim. haha. :p

so, uh. i scrolled up just now.. and wow. i wrote a lot of stuff, i bet some of you stopped between paragraphs cause it's pretty boring. hahha. yeah. words are boring. uh, i have to go do something important like -- feed the cats. hahah. oh! did i mention, i saw this kucing juling on my roof :) cute oh :) siamese again thatt :) eeee!! i want a siamese cat :(

so, here's your reward*chh* for reading all my shitzz ; -- reward? more like nothing. hahaha. just something to not make it look boring lah :p not for you, for me only :) hahahha. tata calls it a family picther. haha.